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I am uber busy today, but I am FULL of energy. wtf?

It's like I am full of sugar or something. It's retarded. Normally about this time I am drooling on my desk. Hurray for being more energetic, I guess? Crazy sauce...

Finished Eddy's jacket last night for the Steampunk Ninja costumes last night. Pictures will be up of us in the outfits eventually. :)

So I had a awkward experience this morning.

I am a morning person, the boyfriend is not... in the slightest... at all. I pop up like a daisy at 8am even with out an alarm, he normally will drag himself out of bed like a zombie at noon on the weekends. It's kind of adorable, but I digress.

Because of this fact, I get up with our puppy, Jericho, every morning and do our morning routine and Eddy will put him to bed because he stays up later.

I let him out to use the bathroom, feed him, play with him, and let him follow me around as I get ready. Well, he's gotten so good with going out to do his business and coming straight back in, I don't have to go out with him anymore, I can just stand by the door and wait. So I have gotten lazy and have just been going down in my panties and bra so I can let him out sooner, not have to get completely dressed every morning before he gets to go out. It's out the back door, there is not a soul on that back walkway at that time in the morning, lots of trees for cover from the other apartments, so I feel safe to just poke my head out.

All of this to explain that this morning, in all my matching crimson red panties and bra combo glory (at least it was a sports bra) when I let the puppy out, just at that moment a maintenance guy for our apartment complex was walking right by the door. Jericho being a good guard dog that he is (sigh) immediately alerted me there was a guy a few feet away by barking his head off. Well this also let the guy know we were there too, and made him look in our direction. I matched the color of my underwear at that moment and immediately dove behind the door. I smiled a little and said, "Good Morning!" and gave a wave. I knew he saw, and he knew that I knew. Nothing needed to be said other than an exchange of greetings.

Needless to say from this point on I am wearing a robe to go down stairs in the morning.

Going to be on a panel as a Ninja at Dragon*Con this year. Go Ninja Go Ninja Go. I have promised a dear friend that if I am asked for wise advise from a Ninja, I would say this quote,"Wise man say- Forgiveness is divine, but never pay full price for late pizza."

Cookie to who ever knows that quote. From one of my favorite things ever. ^.~

Finishing up the steampunk ninja outfits, pictures when they are done. Uber proud of these. They will be done in time for con. Uber excited.

I have lost 30 pounds since January, and I am the same weight I was when I got back from boot camp, but I am having a fluffy day for some reason. God, being female is ridiculous sometimes. >.<

My advisor from Georgia State sent me an e-mail the other day. Still in school to be a doctor, just took a little more time off from it after the Airforce flop and divorce. Needed to get some personal stuff in order. I am ready to get back to it though. I will eventually have PhD after my name..... eventually. lulz. o.o....

Modeling is going well. There was a bit of a lull- but I have another big gig in September to film another video for the women's self defense studio in Sarasota. Full contact and I actually have to defend myself with the specific moves they provide. Though it is exciting and I love it, I have to keep my self from brawling with the guy. I am a boxer, and stronger than the average girl. I fight like a guy. I have to remember not actually deck the guy when he lunges at me. It's hard to just pin the guy into tapping out. >.<

Been wrestling on occasion too with Sleeper Kid's World. Lots of fun, and I keep meeting really cool girls doing it. All about meeting new people. ^^

So life is trucking along. Finances fluctuate, but I have a steady 9-5 that pays the bills. I do the extra stuff to have a life outside of work. Though I feel like I am changing and getting some new experiences under my belt. I'll be 25 in February and have decided I am going to do something big for my birthday. Don't know what yet. Suggestions?

I am excited for Dragon*Con, yet frazzled with sewing projects. Looking forward to actually being able to have fun this year. I'm a grunt this year, not a room runner. When I am off shift, I am REALLY off shift. >.<

Whoo!

Grack....ah... **flop**

So, I am exhausted. Eddy and I adopted a puppy on Sunday. Wow, a 2 month old puppy is more like parenthood than I realized. Especially waking up at zero dark thirty in the morning because he puked on my pillow and the bed. Yay! o.O

He is a good puppy all in all. He's smart, very mild tempered but very playful. He already has the house training down and will hold it all night till I let him out in the morning. All of this at 2 months old. Pretty cool dog. :)

Modeling seems to be taking off. Going through the motions of trying to keep up my appearance is a bit of a pain in the ass. Like my nails, hair, keeping my face clear and my eyebrows in check, legs shaved... Little maintenance things most girls do, but I kind of let slide most of the time. I am such a guy sometimes. But, I've learned quickly that it's easier and faster to just keep it up than have to run home and rush through it all because I have a unexpected shoot/interview. Baaa... being a girl is the devil.

I've been writing, but with my 9-5, my technically 2nd job, house still needing the final unpacking touches and now a new puppy... well... writing inspiration has been there, just I haven't had the time to sit down and empty my head into word. I have one story that the only person irl that would be interested in hearing about it doesn't want to hear any spoilers and wants to read it when I'm finished. Blah... I really do need to break down and get a beta. -.-

I need to go clothes shopping now too. My pants wont stay up and some of my shirts are getting loose enough to show my bra through my arm holes. -.- **piss and moan, piss and moan**

Other than random grumbles, my life is doing well. I am happy. :)

So, I am moved in and the place is GI-NOR-NANNY-MOUSE-OH! Holy crap, I don’t have enough stuff to fill it up… yet… mwahaha…

It’s funny how annoyed you can get when you unpack your kitchen stuff and realize you have to buy a can opener… pot holders… cooking utensils… bowls…etc… *sigh*

The joys of moving into a new place… BUT! I am moved in and have slept like a rock for the past three nights. Wonderful, deep, comfortable sleep. I feel at ease, like I can handle the world crashing down… *knocks on wood*

Just having a place to escape, a place that I can parade around in my underwear and feel safe. I have missed it, and not having it bled into my normal laid back self. I can let things roll off my back now.

Just being in the new place less than a week, the things that were REALLY bothering just aren’t anymore. It’s not that I don’t care, just that I know there is nothing I can do and some things are just best left alone. So I just don’t let myself be bothered and it seems to fade into the background. I feel stronger for it.

Dying my hair a darker blonde tonight, I am taking baby steps to my natural hair color. I will still have highlights, but trying to go back to the color it was when I was 18. :)

Going to Za tonight and bringing Eddy. I used to go a lot, but then life got in the way. Hurray for being social. :D

Doing my major shopping tomorrow night, need to get so much crap for the new place. I might stay up late and do a crap-ton of laundry. Wooo! Domestic Barrie, FTW.

Just might take the weekend to unpack during the day and get out at night. It’s wonderful, and I love it.

Eddy and I are going to adopt a puppy sometime soon too. That is going to be an exciting disaster. :)

More than likely will post the high points of raising a puppy. It's adorable that this will be the first time Eddy raises a puppy. :)

I’m sure my cat Kuro will be just THRILLED.

Damn… I need a mop too. -.-

So,

What's up?

I remember getting on this thing and rambling to my little heart's content. About strawberry cream cheese and blueberry bagels or how I twisted my ankle being my usual clumsy self.

They STILL haven't come up with a chewable cure for clumsiness. Bastards. >.>

Life is life. It will have its ups and stressful down pours. All you can do is pray your dollar store umbrella survives the carnage. Or something like that. o.O...

Currently writing again. Haven't had inspiration for a while and now I want to write in three of my stories at once. Which is really confusing because all the different story lines and completely different personalities. So I have settled for finishing my fanfiction project before jumping into my books again. One step at a time. So is life, one foot in front of the other and one step at a time.

Currently hacking up a lung. Last little bit of a sinus infection that went to my lungs. Barrel of monkeys that was. -.-...

Moving into my new apartment with Eddy on Monday. Pretty excited. Looking forward to getting back on my feet and starting over. I have needed it, but the past few months I have seemed to be stumbling and bumbling my way through everyday life. I'm kosher, just looking for that stability to get my footing. Something steady to keep my eye on as the world around me does its best impression of a dryer.

Just coming to the realization that nothing will ever be the same, but that is life. Every day that passes- nothing will ever be like the day before. Another day carved into the bed post and hopefully another day wiser- though for most of us- another day more senile.

Though the thick emotions and random thoughts of grocery lists, tuition fees, and dentist appointments, I can honestly step back and realize that despite the drama and chaos- I am happy. With all that has happened in the past year, I can say I am happy now. There were points where I felt I wasn't going to get through, but what option was there but to buckle down a trudge through it? For the people around me and even some who aren't, I am thankful. 

What doesn't kill you... well... doesn't kill you. Learning experiences are a real kick in the pants some times, but they are just that. An experience you learn from. Hopefully anyway, humans make mistakes, and sometimes repeat the same mistakes. Repetitive and redundant and …monotonous?

I am still working at off of Chantilly. It’s a good job and is perfect until I get out of school. Just have to figure that mess out.

Still in debt, but who isn’t really? Isn’t worth the carpal tunnel typing up a huge long rant that mirrors the next 24 year old female trying to work full time and put herself through medical school. I happen to like spaghetti-o’s. One full serving of vegetables, the future nutritionist in me likes that.

Though it is sad that all I have to tell homeless people is that I’m pre-med and they wince.

My sneakers from the air force are wearing out too. Less than a year and they already look grungy. I do wear them every day. One of the best things I got from Texas in my opinion. Shoes.

Still a little bitter about the military, but everything happens for a reason. All you can do is keep going. Roll with the punches. Hm…

I’m sure I can ramble until your eyes rot out of your head, but I have stuff I should be doing. Well should be, more than likely not going to do because it’s warm outside and I would like to be lazy today.

Go out to the park, it’s amazing outside. Walk your dog. If you don’t have a dog, then take your girlfriend. I’m she wouldn’t mind the leash. ^.~

Hey guys,

My birthday is on Sunday and I am going to be at the Ru-San's on Barrett pkwy at 7 pm. Feel free to drop by or hang out. Not a huge thing, just hanging out for a bit and eating sushi. More than welcome to join! :)

"The way I see it is why dwell on what he said/she said? Life is too short to crumple into a depressed, miserable heap on the floor. I'm going to be fine, and he's going to be fine. So we are working on a good, stable friendship. Like most things though, it takes time."

Quote from my last journal entry. I truly mean that, every word. I have been good about not venting frustrations on a public domain or even to people in person. I don't want to dwell, but it's hard when you over hear it first hand.

So it kind of hurts and pisses me off to find out that because of that I am being turned into the bad guy.

Thomas and I are both at fault. We are working it out and will be friends. I really don't to be standing in another room and over hear some one talking about MY situation. Just because I haven't vented every detail of my inner thoughts to you it doesn't mean I am not your friend, but that doesn't mean you can just assume that I am just fucked up in the head for the choices I have made. I'm not dumb, stop treating me like I am.

Everything happens for a reason, and if you are a friend of mine then just respect that I have enough common sense to make the choices I feel are in MY best interest. Just because I am keeping to myself and out of a public domain and not venting to large groups of people does not mean I am not hurting and sad about a relationship I had been in for almost 6 years is over. Anyone who saw us could see how much I cared for the man, and I don't want bull shit affecting our chances of being friends.

So knock it off. It's none of your business and not a topic for you to gossip about.

Especially for one of us to accidentally over hear.

I'm still good, just more than a little perturbed with some people, that doesn't mean I'm going shank anybody. I'm just a little disappointed.

So this is my vent, I am done and going back to being ok. There, *PooF* I'm back. -.-...

Yeah, hard to believe, huh?

Life is a little hectic. New job, new home, getting a divorce next week and I am dating some one. He's an awesome guy and he's patient. Which is what I need right now. Especially with what has gone on in the passed 6 months.

Military didn't work out. Turns out I have Asthma and didn't know it. Go figure, huh?

I'm good though, all things considered. Stress is abundant, but I am just rolling with it. Thomas and I are going to be fine too. Yeah, we are getting divorced, and it's to be expected it's going to be a little awkward for a while, but we are going to be friends. So anyone choosing sides will get kicked in the face.

...I'm tall, I can do that.

The way I see it is why dwell on what he said/she said? Life is too short to crumple into a depressed, miserable heap on the floor. I'm going to be fine, and he's going to be fine. So we are working on a good, stable friendship. Like most things though, it takes time.

So sorry about being hermit'ish. I have a lot of work to do to get my life in order. I am here though, and I am fine. :)

I attacked my sister in law with clothes yesterday and made her model for me. She is one of the prettiest girls I know and I liked making her parade around my house like a model. It was fun. So here are some shots.

The whole set is here

Took this one too. Mwahaha...

I took the picture AND edited it. Yay! ...I guess I'm kinda improving. ^^;;;

 Thomas and I are eating breakfast while watching "Best of the Best"
This is our conversation so far:

Barrie: There's a soccer goal on their karate field! Hahahaha!
Thomas: I don't how you could be good at Karate while missing an eye.
Barrie: Don't you know that is the sign of the token bad guy? *booming voice* I can't see you from my left side, but I am evil and it makes up for that!
Thomas: Why are they yelling Korea in english!?

...yeah, we are weird. ^^

I am exhausted. >.<

Had a great couple of days. 

Got to make Potato soup yesterday and watch movies and stuff with Thomas all day. That was awesome. We are heading out to his company's softball game tonight to do some photography. It's actually part of his job, I'm just going to be there doing it for fun. :D

Hopefully going to get text messaging back up on my phone today. I would LOVE to contact people with out having to actually call them. Twitter updates would be nice too. :)

So, here I am sitting in my Nutrition and Health class. I can tell it's the last couple of weeks of class. I'm ready to take a break. >.<

 I have to say I am having a good second half of the week so far.  ^^

Third post in one day... ZOMG! o.o...

....The guy called me 'sir' at the cafe' today. I was buying a red bull for class and he looked me right in the eye and said "What can I get you sir?"
He didn't even correct himself or anything!

 Argh!!!! My Ego! It's been hit!!! *grabs chest and falls over*

If I wasn't self conscious enough about my hair cut. >.>.... I'm wearing make-up today and everything.

I'm doomed to people's brains not processing fast enough that even though my hair is uber short and I'm tall- I am indeed female. At least he didn't glare at my throat checking for an adam's apple like some people do. 

I'm huge, but I am all woman damn it! >.<....

*sigh*... I'll just might get all girly for Za this week. I need an ego boost. >.>...

I was watching DBZ a while ago and there was a part-(get ready for anime geek speak)- That Bulma's father was operating on Android 16 and he was explaining it was a very complicated procedure and he had to be careful. Well this was my train of thought:

Inner Barrie: It would be hilarious if he sneezed and took out half of Android 16's insides because he flinched.

Outloud Barrie: "Achoo! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!" 

Well my brothers gave me a weird look and I realized that I did it again. o.O;;;

I just had one of those moments and I realized I didn't tell the whole joke, I just shouted out the punch line and cackled to myself.

I saw a picture that reminded me of a part in a fanfiction I read a while ago, so in the middle of a cafe's at my school I said "Knobbles! BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

Yeah... that was great. I don't think I can explain the scene to the ENTIRE cafe'.

I am such a dork. >.<

Though now I have an itch to watch some DBZ.  =D